Starting Over 2.0

Right, so it's been awhile, mostly because I haven't found my stride as a blogger, but also because life has become much more than me waking up each day and enjoying my little girl while keeping house. It's become what I never thought my life would be: schedule coordination, day care, stressful jobs, unexpected travel plans gone awry, getting excited just to sit and watch tv with my husband for a half an hour prior to passing out at 8:30 at night, only to do it all over again the next day. I look back at my eight month maternity leave as a seriously sleep deprived extended vacation.

Which at this point, I realize all sounds utterly depressing.  My 25 year-old self would look down her nose at her older, more settled future Kristin, and think, Really? Sooooo BORING.

But that's the thing. It's not either of those things.

This summer has been a season of change, of personal growth, of learning more about myself than I ever thought was humanly possible in such a short time. And despite the stresses of everyday life, including my suddenly and surprisingly rambunctious (albeit, amazing in every way) 10 month old, I'm the happiest I've ever been in my life, and have come to discover that I'm exactly where I'm meant to be, with the people I'm meant to spend it with.

Which brings me to my final point. Up until now my blog has been a handful of excerpts of life at home with a baby while trying to balance home life, but it hasn't been a true glimpse of what I'm feeling, thinking, or in all honesty, not wanting to feel or think. It's time for my self-realizations be put down on paper... Or microns? Or something electronic given the plugged-in nature of my computer?  Anyhow, it's time to be a bit more honest with myself and with those around me. So, here goes!

And I promise to continue to include super-cute pics of little E. And I also promise to not make any other "start-over" blog posts. This is it!