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Go.
The sun shone brightly as we ran through the cool morning breeze. She turned away from me as we dodged the lower lying tree limbs, and giggled. She reached back to me as we went, but as my hand grasped to feel her tiny smooth fingers, my own fingers moved through hers as if she were a ghost. And then she was gone.
I woke up to my heart thumping in my ears, the fear of losing Miss E somewhere in the woods haunting me deep down to the bottom of my soul. And as I sat up to catch my breath, I realized almost immediately what the dream had meant in that moment.
She's getting older. A little braver. A little more ready to walk a few feet in front of or behind us. As her fourth anniversary on this earth creeps up on us, I can sense her independence growing. Her want to figure things out on her own. I am so so proud of her, but my heart aches for this very moment. This time that feels like a tipping point of sorts, teetering on the old and new, the young and old, on the brave and not quite so sure.
Stop.
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| Though she be but little, she is fierce! |
Oh, this girl of ours. She's done quite a number on me, and we haven't even gotten to the hard stuff. Hope y'all are enjoying your Friday evening!
xoxo, k.
So vivid! The details pulled me in. Enjoy your journey! Stopping by from FMF.
ReplyDeleteThanks so much Leigh!
DeleteI can totally picture this. Thanks for such a beautiful post!
ReplyDeleteThanks, Tara! Hope you had a great weekend :)
DeleteYour incredible girl has an amazing mother who clearly cares for her wellbeing and safety :)
ReplyDeleteThank you, Sarah! She is pretty incredible :)
DeleteKristin, I loved reading this. I tried to leave a comment yesterday but for some reason every time I hit publish the comment disappeared. Anyway, you sound like a very loving mama. Enjoy your precious girl :) Time seems to pass so quickly and before you know it your children are grown with children of their own. Cherish every moment :)
ReplyDeleteThank you so much, Gayl. I try to cherish it, even when they're being little buggers ;) Sorry about the commenting... I know it has something to do with blogger, and I'm trying to fix it!
DeleteOh, boy! Do I ever know that feeling! My husband provides a good balance for me--I probably would have confined our children to inside of the house until they got married or something ;), but he insisted on letting them do crazy things and go on adventures. He probably had the right idea. I still worry about them, but they've gone on two-week mission trips to Peru, Guatemala and Mexico (without ME), worked for two summers to save money and traveled all over Europe by themselves (ok, with each other and two young men--one of whom later married our eldest), and spent a school year in Argentina. It's hard to let them go--but oh, so very good for them!
ReplyDeleteThank you for this reminder! Mr. Kuda is 100% MUCH better about letting them do more. Thank goodness, because I'm just a worry wart, and he keeps me grounded. Thanks so much for reading!
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